When Plans Crumble, Think of Cookies

When plans crumble, remember that cookie crumbs still taste good, even though they are not what you originally intended to eat.

I realized yesterday that this was the semester that I had been planning to participate in the Disney College Program.  As you can see, instead of hanging around on hotel rooftops and taking selfies in front of the Magic Kingdom…IMG_3510

I am stuck in the middle of nowhere at my college drinking away my sorrows.  IMG_2918Okay, that’s not accurate at all as this photo was not taken at my college, is with cranberry juice, and I am really enjoying this semester but thought it would be funny.

As I said, since 7th grade I was going to spend this spring in Florida at my dream company working hard and having fun in the parks.  I am a Capricorn and plan out every little bit of my life to the last minute.  A recent EliteDaily article titled “If You Know An Intimidating Woman, She’s Probably A Capricorn” almost perfectly describes me (at least in the first few sections), especially when the author writes: “She has a vision for her life, and she knows that only hard work and ambition will get her there.”  I had wanted to work at Disney since forever and since the College Program was highly recommended on many of the Disney Intern job postings, I was going to do it.  Nothing was going to stop me.  When I did not want to do homework in middle school because I thought it useless (which sometimes it honestly was looking back), I made my goal the Disney College Program and that was my motivation.  I repeat, not the goal of getting into a good school, but being able to participate in the Disney College Program.  Yeah, I was a crazy kid.

Due to some rules at my college I had not known about, the Disney College Program started to seem less likely after the first week I spent talking to the academic office.  After spending a lot of time following one of my favorite quotes-Raundy Pausch’s quote from his book “The Last Lecture”- “The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough. They’re there to stop the other people” and trying to knock down the brick wall my school was putting up, I had to stop.  After speaking with some high up officials with the school, I realized that the rule could not be changed and I was not willing to risk reapplying to my school after completing the program.  I found out it was not feasible for this semester, but that I could definitely apply my last semester I was in college for the following semester.  I made a new goal to graduate a year early from college (which is going to happen) and modified my life plan that I had focused on for years.

If I had done the college program this semester, I would not have had the chance to go on the trip to Orlando with my school which was absolutely amazing and provided some great networking opportunities.  I would not have been able to go on the trip to Nebraska I will be going on in a few months.  I would not have joined a community service co-ed fraternity.  I would not have been able to present the research I had worked on last semester with a professor.  Yes, the Disney College Program would have provided me with lots of amazing things and I love reading about current DCP bloggers who are there, but at this time, it was not meant to be for me.

I remember dreading this semester after my first semester at college because I knew that I would be wishing I was in Disney.  But, being that it took three weeks for me to realize that THIS was the semester I had planned to be there shows that I guess I have committed to a changed plan and locked that new plan in.

Would I have still gone to this school if I had known I could not participate in the one thing that I had made my goal for years?  Hmmmm….not completely sure of the answer to that but I am fairly sure it would have been a definite no.

This change might not be as drastic as some other people’s changes in college plans, but to me it was a huge change I had to get used to.  Change happens and whether it is because of someone else or because you have a realization, everything will turn out okay.  People say it will, but it actually does.

I started off this post with an analogy (albeit somewhat of a bad one) but I should probably end with it too.  My perfect cookie cutter plans crumbled.  But I picked up the pieces that I could and designed a new plan.  The old plan and the new plan still taste like the same cookie, the Mary Cate cookie, but they are different forms of my goals.  It was a bit crummy at first, but I have accepted and grown to like that I am on campus for the semester I never intended to be.


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2 responses to “When Plans Crumble, Think of Cookies

  1. Wondering what is the community service co-ed fraternity you are in… I myself am a “brother” of Alpha Phi Omega 🙂

    My school had weird rules about the DCP too, and a few friends got around it by applying for the program during the last semester of senior year, graduating, and then doing the program the following fall. I came very close to applying myself, but ultimately decided not to. You can actually read about it here: https://thefilesofatravelingdaydreamer.wordpress.com/2015/11/20/wanderlust-wedding-in-t-minus-24-hours-farewell-for-now/

    Also I like the cookie analogy 🙂 best of luck to you as you navigate the ever changing world of college!

    • I was just inducted last night and am now a pledge for the semester for Alpha Phi Omega! In April I will officially become a brother-what a coincidence! Yes, that is what I am hoping on doing with applying the last semester for the DCP but who knows something could change again. Just read your post. That’s awesome that you met your husband through APO! It must have been fun going together to Disney for the first time. Thank you so much for wishing me luck with college! I will have to keep you updated on APO.

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